i hate looking at these scrapbooks, it was never my style and i felt forced to decorate it this way because i was trying so desperately to be someone else. to be liked.

i didnt even finish half of the pages in each scrapbook, moving on to the next because i thought the next one would be the "right one". I thought it would be perfect and it would fix me.

however this, I am uploading it here as it was still a creative outlet for me, even if it was restricted. Who knows, I may delete this in the future – but for now, this is my diary. This is my place where I can be myself and show all versions of myself, without the fear of criticism of judgement.